One Foot. Then the Other Foot. Repeat.

One Foot.  Then the Other Foot.  Repeat.

Truth be told, this “getting well” thing, finding wholeness amidst disaster and despair, was challenging. Much more than challenging, actually. Clearing myself of the daily barrage of feelings from the wreckage of my past was a full time endeavour.

Holy shit it was intense!

I fell chest deep in the mire at times, barely able to move forward, barely able to breathe, but I continued to put one foot in front of the other.

One foot.
Then the other foot.
Repeat.

Yup. That was it. My progress was not always pretty. There were the times when I was 2 steps, 5 steps and even 10 steps ahead, when all of a sudden, I came slamming back, only to start all over again.

But with each effort,
With each renewed commitment to wellness,
I became stronger.

I would not give up the fight.

Every new effort was like a beautiful offering to myself.
Each time I picked myself up and dusted myself off and moved forward through the darkness, all of my cells, every single atom, began to sense its innate worth.

I rebirthed myself in this way.

One step at a time.
I continued to put one foot in front of the other.

One foot.
Then the other foot.
Repeat.

I offered hope to myself by never giving up on me.

Determination.
Persistence.
Grace.

That is what got me through.

There has to be another way.
There has to be.
I was willing to die trying.

Each tentative step brought me closer. It awakened in me a deep resonance. Each step evoked a sense of commitment. I was putting myself first. I was putting myself first for the first time in my life. I was going to live my life another way. I was going to begin again. I continued to put one foot in front of the other.

One foot.
Then the other foot.
Repeat.

And here I am!!
And I am here!!

And I am well.

One step at at time.
One foot in front of the other.
Heading towards the light.

Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.

1 Comment

  1. Tanya Neufeld
    January 21, 2014

    Holy wow! Did I ever resonate with that one! Much gratitude and tears for describing my journey. :)

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